I went to a healer today. He loves working with blocks in creativity and music. And though I'm "in the flow" I have been pretty negative lately.
Here are my negative notes from the underground::
1. Please get better! You're 40 and still playing at the level that is lower than many elementary children? Practice more and dream less.
2. If you are awesome, and know you're an amazing player, you're not fun to play with, you can't share the stage and you have an ego problem. Don't get near me!
3. It is hard for me and rough on my ego but my Dagger band: I promise to forever pass the tip jar around during and after the set- we made an extra $69 (yes how lovely) because I insisted on going around the club begging for $ & €. (I did cop out the second half and get Phil's girlfriend to do it but hell- it's the best I could do) Is $69 nickels and dimes? Yes! But that stack of cash is nice to give out to the band so they can go get tacos for breakfast-- and treat their boy/girlfriend.
4.The bar Manager loved my set quote, "that was pretty fucking awesome" so I gave him a cd and asked him to put it on the jukebox. I'm a million years old and I said jukebox!
5. Instead of shouting out "be sure to tip your bartenders people" which for some reason annoys the shit out of me, I said how are those drinks Y'all?? Yell if you love Firehouse! I'm sure that equally annoying. But this bar DOES do specialty cocktails and they do work so hard on each drink....of which as usual I had zip not even a virgin piña colada. What's wrong with me?
6. It's not uncommon for me to avoid the bar all night long and not drink a single thing. I loath waiting around that bar it feels like a cattle call.
7. It is true!!! I got off my scooter with sax axe on my back and bag of framed art AND props and the door guy (with a line of people to get in) said hello Ms. Dagger and let me cut on in. I totally felt like a rockstar.
8. Please God I want to tour Catalan again please please after Honk! NYC I will do anything!
9. The healer said I was Brave (in that I faced the music -- lol) in regards to my problems and I believed him.
10. He said genuine love had been given/passed to me and that could I feel it? I couldn't at the time.
It was a free healing session. It was lovely, but hard work. Healers are very weird and like many therapists some are very whack in their own right. But these guys were really cool- and it's free Wed 6-9 and Sunday 2-5 at Casa De Luz.
Go check it out. I'm blogging more so I can get my thoughts out and refine them.
Goodnight! 1:37am Sunday night
Next show:: Minor Mishap at the Mohawk Downtown ATX